In the opening words of the Lenten prayer of St. Ephren,
we pray, "O Lord and Master of my life, keep from me the
spirit of indifference and discouragement lust of power
and idle chatter. . ." Three of these items seem
reasonable to pray about, but that request to keep the
lusting for power away from me seems strange. Do I ever
lust for power? It seems that's a sin more proper to
politicians, or dictators, or business people, or the
wealthy or maybe people in the entertainment world
rather than for regular, ordinary people like us. And it
is true that we are not in positions to seek the same
type of power those people might seek and desire. But it
doesn't mean that we are free from the danger of lusting
after power.
Do we ever feel the need to be right about
something? That events and people must happen and act in
the ways I choose and desire? Do I ever argue not to try
and get to the truth but to win against someone else? Do
I ever coerce, bribe, lie, mislead or frighten other
people to get my own way? How much do I look to material
goods and money as a source of satisfaction and
security? Do I ever think other people are standing in
the way of my happiness, and am I annoyed that they are
keeping me from doing what I would like to do? Have I
been unhappy at someone else's good fortune? Do I accept
the teachings of Christ and His Church unless they seem
too difficult or they are inconvenient? Have I ever
rushed in to beat someone out of a place in line at the
checkout counter, or for a spot in the parking lot? Have
I ever thought about it even if I didn't do it? Have I
ever been angry that someone else beat me out of a spot?
Maybe we have a little more lusting after power in our
lives than we think. After all, this Ephren prayer
became very popular in monasteries where wealth and
status would not seem to be a temptation.
When Jesus finished His 40-day fast before
He began His public ministry, Satan tempted Him in the
desert two times, to show His power by changing stones
into bread and to jump off the roof of the Temple so
that angels would save Him. Satan's third and last
temptation was to offer the Lord the authority over all
the powers of the world if He would only bow down to
acknowledge Satan's power. But Jesus refused. He came
into this world not to gain power for Himself but to
provide a way, for all those who wish to take it, access
to the very power of His own divine life, a share in
glory of God. That access to power was given to us at
our baptism. It is not in the power of fame, or
knowledge, or money, or ruling or any of the temporary
powers the world holds so dear and so important. It's
the power of truth over lies, peace over conflict, the
power of trust in God over safely in material goods.
It's the power of prayer over constant busyness, the
power of patience over anger, of serving rather than
being served. It's the power of giving, over misplaced
desires, of loving, rather than focusing on how we are
loved, the power of humility over pride, confession over
sin and virtue over weakness and want.
We
may not always be aware of it but we basically do have a
lot of thought and action in our lives that revolves
around the need we feel to have power in our hands. We
generally, probably, don't often see it as a desire for
power and control, and yet at the core, that is what
it's about. It's true, we may not be plotting the
overthrow of the government to the north of us so that
we can be crowned as Emperor of Canada. But where we
look for power, and how we use it has a tremendous
impact on the character of our lives. St. Paul tells us
that Christ came to empty Himself out for us, so that we
can in turn might embrace Him and His supreme loving
kindness. That's the power we need.
It's
easy to look out into the world and find people who, no
matter how much power they hold, are never satisfied.
It's more difficult to look at our own lives and
recognized the many ways in which we may be lusting and
grabbing for power to use for ourselves. But it is
absolutely true that the only lasting, satisfying and
worthy source of power for ourselves is found in our
life in Christ, and to Him be the kingdom, and the power
and the glory forever and ever. Amen.