Chapter 9 of Paul’s letter to the Corinthians opens with
the question “Am I not free?” And then he goes on to
list all of the rights that are available to him but he
does not use them. Why does he not use them? Because he
chooses not to use them. He is free.
The idea of freedom has come up for me this week in a
number of ways in talking with people. Freedom, of
course, the power to act or not act, to do this thing or
that thing. The Catechism says, “By free will one shapes
one’s own life. Human freedom is a force for growth and
maturity in truth and goodness. Freedom reaches
perfection when it is directed toward God, our
beatitude.” We have free will and we are always in the
position of being able to choose, using that free will,
between good and evil. That is what basic human freedom
is all about. It is not, as many people think, about the
ability to do whatever one wishes to do. That’s why we
have laws. They help to guide us in choosing the good
and if we break those laws we may run the risk of losing
our freedom in a jail cell.
We live in strange times. Times where there are a fair
number of people who believe that their emotions are
reasonable and acceptable guides to knowing what is
true, good and desirable. The fact that people can
believe that “reasonable” can be used in connection with
emotions shows the problem. If there is one thing we can
be sure of, it is that our emotions do not spring out of
our rational faculty, they are not the product of our
thinking powers. For example, try to will yourself to
feel very happy that I am preaching right now.
Very happy. Did it work? You can’t just will your
emotions into being. They do not come from acts of our
will. If emotions are not based in our power to reason
does that mean they are unreasonable? Not necessarily.
When a relative dies I may feel sad. When the priest
stops preaching I may feel happy. Are these reasonable
emotions, reasonable responses? Yes, they are. But that
does not mean they begin or come from our reasoning.
They simply coincide, or go along with the situation we
are in and they do so in a reasonable way. Yet we also
know there are times when we feel sad when we should be
happy, and vice versa, because there is not always rhyme
or reason when it comes to feelings.
Our emotions can be very powerful, and strangely enough,
it seems the negative and harmful emotions can be the
most powerful and long-lasting. Rage, anger,
frustration, hatred and fear are good examples. We can
fall into these fairly quickly and easily and sometimes
they can last for long periods of time, or they keep
coming back, again and again because of some situation
or some memory, or because we don’t even know why.
Notice which kinds of emotions usually have the most
force and the greatest staying power. How often do you
think, “I just can’t get over this feeling of happiness,
it just keeps coming back to me again and again and
again.”? Or how about, “The doctor wants to run some
more tests, and every time I think about it a great
feeling of peace seems to get a hold of me.” It seems
certain kinds of feelings tend to hold us more
powerfully and more easily than other kinds.
But emotions are just emotions and we do not choose them
freely. They just come to us. Sometimes they are
helpful, sometimes they are not, and sometimes they are
dangerous to us, for other people, and for our Christian
life and even our salvation. Emotions often push us to
act this way or that way, or to think this way or that
way. When someone acts with great passion we may say
“He’s lost his mind” because he is not acting in reason,
but by emotion. But most of the time we are not acting
in some out of control fashion fueled by our feelings.
Yet we know that we let our emotions get the better of
us at times. Instead of using reason we let our feelings
push us around and prompt us to say this, and do that,
and think like this. When we’re angry we lash out, when
we’re afraid we lose hope, when we’re sad we wallow in
it—these are some of the ways we let our feelings rule
us. Our emotions can be very strong, very persistent and
very persuasive, but my dear friends we should never
obey them, but rather we should use our God-given
freedom to think and choose what is good, and avoid what
is evil. We have free will, and we should never give
that free will over to our emotional states. We may not
be able to control them, but we should never allow them
to control us.
This is a basic element of our human freedom: we are
free to choose the good, no matter what our feelings
tells us. We are free to choose to live in hope, no
matter what fears cross our minds. We are free to act in
love, even when we may feel hatred and loathing. We are
free to deny ourselves even when greedy thoughts want us
to take, and we are free to hold back even when we feel
like lashing out. We are free to choose forgiveness over
revenge, and free to seek peace of mind rather than to
allow chaos to rule in our heads. We cannot necessarily
control our emotions, but we should never, ever allow
them to control us. We need freedom. We need that kind
of freedom. But how to live more freely?
A few suggestions: