Whenever I hear this Gospel, whenever I read it, I
always think of healing not simply in the physical
sense, but the healing of the whole person. We often
pray to the Lord to heal us, or other people, from
physical disease and illness and that certainly is a
good thing. But it’s not the only kind of healing we
need, it’s not the only kind of health we should pray
for. That’s why at every Liturgy we ask the Lord, “May
the partaking of Your Holy Mysteries be not for judgment
or condemnation, but for the healing of soul and body.”
The healing of our bodies, yes, but also the healing of
our souls. Our souls need healing. We should ask the
Lord for this healing, not just at Communion time, but
even every day.
The first and most important part of the healing of our
souls is the repairing of the damage I have done to
myself because of my sins. Our sins wound us. They wound
our relationship with Christ, they wound our
relationships with other people; they leave us weaker.
We don’t feel that as directly as we do if we cut our
finger badly because we lost control of a knife. We
can’t see our souls and look at the wounds we carry, but
we are indeed in need of healing for our spirits every
bit as much as we may need healing for our bodies. The
wounds of sin in our life are very real but there is a
Doctor we can turn to Who is capable of curing the
damage. But we need to ask Him for His healing touch.
There are other kinds of healing we may need also, which
may or may not be the result of our sins. Sometimes they
may be the result of other people’s sins. No matter
where or why they affected us, we should pray for the
healing of memories. The memories of our sins, the
memories of painful, upsetting, disturbing events and
actions of the past that still cause us pain today are
memories that the Lord can treat. These memories may be
so strong that they put us at risk by tempting us to do
wrong, to doubt in the power of the Lord’s grace and
mercy, to fill us with shame for sins already confessed
and forgiven, to oppress us and depress us and tempt us
to lose hope. Painful memories can weigh us down with
aches and sorrow, making it difficult for us to walk in
the freedom of the sons and daughters of God. We may not
be able to forget them, but that’s okay. What we need to
do is ask the Lord to cure them so that these memories
do not continue to harm us and interfere with our desire
to live more faithfully, in peace, in Christ. We should
pray the Lord to heal our bad memories.
We should pray for the healing of our emotions. We may
need help with anger, or resentment, or envy, or pride,
or feelings of worthlessness, or sadness. Too many times
we allow our emotions to push us this way or that way.
We let them tell us what to think and how to act and
it’s simply true that most often our emotions are not
working for our good. Simple enough: how many times
yesterday did you feel irritated, frustrated or
impatient? Now, how many times yesterday did you feel
happy? This is why we should never allow our emotions to
make our decisions for us. More often than not, they
will take us down the wrong path. It is very likely that
we have some strong emotional habits that are not good
for us or good for others. Why that is so is not really
important. What is important is that when these
emotional habits appear we ask the Lord to heal them,
because what we can not do on our own He can do for us.
Think on these things, please, because we probably do
not think much about the health of our souls, not nearly
as much as the health of our bodies. But as we are a
unity of body and soul, spiritual weakness and illness
can even affect our physical health in ways we may not
see.
It is always good for us to turn to the Divine Physician
as the Centurion did, that we may be healed for our
physical ills, for the wounds caused by our sins, for
the healing of bad memories and for treating the
emotions that are trouble for us. We are not worthy, but
even so He is willing to enter in under our roofs. When
He comes let us greet Him and ask for the healing of our
souls and bodies.