In the opening words of the Lenten prayer of St. Ephrem,
we pray, "O Lord and Master of my life, keep from me the
spirit of indifference and discouragement lust of power
and idle chatter. . ." Three of these items seem
reasonable to pray about, but that request to keep away
from lusting for power might seem a bit strange. Do I
ever lust for power? It seems that's a sin more proper
to politicians, or dictators, or business people, or the
wealthy or maybe people in the entertainment world
rather than for regular, ordinary people like us. And it
is true that we are not in positions to seek the same
type of power those people might seek and desire. But it
doesn't mean that we are free from the danger of lusting
after power.
Do we ever feel the need to be right about something?
That events and people must happen and act in the ways I
choose and desire? Do I ever argue not to try and get to
the truth but to win against someone else? Do I ever
coerce, bribe, lie, mislead, or frighten other people to
get my own way? How much do I look to material goods and
money as a source of satisfaction and security? Do I
ever think other people are standing in the way of my
happiness, and am I annoyed that they are keeping me
from doing what I would like to do? Do I accept the
teachings of Christ and His Church unless they seem too
difficult or they are inconvenient and then I follow my
own desires? Have I ever rushed in to beat someone out
of a place in line at the checkout counter, or for a
spot in the parking lot? Have I ever been angry that
someone else beat me out of a spot? Maybe we have a
little more lusting after power in our lives than we
think. After all, this Ephrem prayer became very popular
in monasteries where wealth and status would not seem to
be great sources of temptation.
When Jesus finished His 40-day fast before He began His
public ministry, Satan tempted Him in the desert two
times, to show His power by changing stones into bread
and to jump off the roof of the Temple so that angels
would save Him. Satan's third and last temptation was to
offer the Lord the authority over all the powers of the
world if He would only bow down to acknowledge Satan's
power. But Jesus refused. He came into this world not to
gain power for Himself but to provide a way, for all
those who wish to take it, access to the very power of
His own divine life, a share in glory of God. That
access to power was given to us at our baptism. It is
not in the power of fame, or knowledge, or money, or
ruling or any of the temporary powers the world holds so
dear and so important. It's the power of truth over
lies, peace over conflict, the power of trust in God
over safety in material goods. It's the power of prayer
over constant busy-ness, the power of patience over
anger, of serving rather than being served. It's the
power of giving, over misplaced desires, of loving
rather than focusing on how we are loved, the power of
humility over pride, confession over sin and virtue over
weakness and want.
We may not always be aware of it, but we probably do
have a lot of thought and action in our lives that
revolves around the need we feel to have the wrong kind
of power in our hands. We generally, probably, don't
often see it as a desire for power and control, and yet
at the core, that is what it's about. It's true, we may
not be plotting the overthrow of the government to the
north of us so that we can be crowned as King or Queen
of Canada. But where we look for power, and how we use
it has a tremendous impact on the character of our
lives. St. Paul tells us that Christ came to empty
Himself out for us, so that we in turn might embrace Him
and His supreme loving kindness. That's the power we
need.
It's easy to look out into the world and find people
who, no matter how much power they hold, are never
satisfied because the kind of power people tend to lust
after is never satisfying in the end. It always looks
for something more. It can be truly difficult to look at
our own lives and recognize the many ways in which we
may be lusting and grabbing for power to use for
ourselves. But it is absolutely true that the only
lasting, satisfying, and worthy source of power for
ourselves is found in our life in Christ, and to Him be
the kingdom, and the power and the glory forever and
ever. Amen.